Today the divorce is final between Jennifer and myself. I am not going to go into details about it as it is too personal for blogs. Being with someone for over 5 years and then not having anyone is definitely something I don’t wish on anyone. Coming home is not the same for me anymore, most nights I don’t even want to go home. If it wasn’t for the cats I more than likely would stay at work til 10 then come home to bed and right back up next day.
Being more social is helping but still the urge to want to go home and hug someone or ask how their day went is still the hardest part of this whole ordeal. While we have remained friends, me being the part time asshole that I am still wants to take pot shots about her. I have also turned to drinking again, yes I know its wrong to 1 drink and 2 do it alone. A good friend told me that I shouldn’t be drinking alone and my comment to her was “well then get your butt over here and help me then”
I have started to reaching out to more of my family now, even the ones that I used to not be in that good of contact with. Also with the help and advice of friends hopefully I will get over this without too many scars.
I guess this is one hell of a way to start a blog but might as well start going out of the box. I will try to update more often and hopefully not drunk blogging.
Nathan
